At the same time, I know I can accomplish so much more with God working through me. I think there might defiantly be some control issues in there as well (just a guess really). But the truth is, I need God more then I care to let on.
I like to believe I can take care of myself in every way. But I am going to choose to trust that you have this." With my anger will I turn away from God? Or will I instead choose to look God in the spiritual face and say "Hey I don't understand this. It is how we choose to react that can be destructive. Emotions are not what become destructive in our relationships. But in reality, my emotions are just another reflection of the very creator I was made in the image of. I think sometimes I see my emotions as human. Anger is only destructive when you use it to push away from a relationship. How could I, a mere human, feel this way toward God? How disrespectful could I be to question the creator of the universe? Then a really good mentor of mine corrected me. For a long time I believed that these feelings were horrible. So to my five followers: stay average and let Christ move you to be extraordinary. What I do believe is that as an average person, I have the ability to do some extraordinary things through God. The bible is riddled with average people going along about their business until a burning bush starts chatting them up.Could it possibly be that average is the new extraordinary? I do not believe that my story about a saving a turtle is going to attract any new readers. You know what though I am not alone in my average ways. I don't have the heart breaking stories that make people want to get up and follow Christ. That is the type of material that leaves the audience feeling ready to meet the day. The more adorable and tearful the story, the better. If you ever listen to a pastor on Sunday there always seems to be a story about the great saving of the turtle. This is the type of thing pastor's pray will happen to them so they can share it on Sunday!" This is what is going to set your blog above the rest. Not much of an experience but hey it happened. I put my blinkers on and waited for the turtle to cross the street.
I looked behind me and started to back up my car.
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The shell was just sitting in the street and then slowly a little head popped out. I immediately stopped my car and looked behind. I was driving home from work and I happen to look down in time to realize I had run over a turtle. We were driving along when I told him about my experience today with a turtle. So who was the one with the opinion? Dad. One had an opinion and the other four told me "yeah its good" to make me go away.
#MATTHEW WEST IM FINE HOW TO#
Now that I am a full time blogger, I have found that the entirety of my full 3 followers and 2 silent followers (aka the technology lacking friends who can't figure out how to follow me) have much to say about my blogging experience. I think it's about time I started to be more serious about it too. A friend recently reminded me that Paul tells us in Matthew, that we are to leave our gifts at the alter and be reconciled with our brother before we offer our gift( Matthew 5:23-26). And as such we are expected to practice reconciliation in our life's. Reconciliation was salvation for Christians. Romans 5:10 tells us that we were reconciled through the death of Jesus. I guess that in many cases the word reconciliation can seem like closure. I don't need to go back into all of that. What's that? Reconciliation? Forgiveness? You're going to build me back up? But I walked away. It only seems fair right? I mean it is their fault. So here's the deal God, I am going to be bitter about these people and I am going to continue to blame them for the way my life is now. "YOU" is the collection of all those people who were suppose to do something or be something for me but just never pulled through. "YOU" is that friend who was never suppose to abandon their other half but instead decided they were better off alone. "YOU" is that Christian leader who was suppose to hold up their congregation but instead watched some fall. They treated their family like strangers. "YOU" is that close family member who was suppose to be there but wasn't. I would be an all around better person if "YOU" hadn't screwed up so badly. I wouldn't have these issues I have right now. It's those people that I can point to and say if it wasn't for "YOU" I would be a better person. I think it is safe to say that everyone has a "YOU" in their life. YOU have wronged me in such a way that now my life is being drafted for a made for t.v. I am the mess I am because of YOU! This is going to take years of psychological help to get over. For days, weeks, and months I have doubted myself because of YOU. You're an ass hole who has completely wronged me that's why.
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